A Turn for the Worse

My stomach had blown up like a basketball. The discomfort was like previous episodes of constipation I have had as a result of Parkinson’s. A week ago, I had asked a fellow Parkinson’s patient how he got diagnosed. He said he had ten years of constipation, which turns out can be a serious complication of …

Burnout

Romance and Medicine

“We need to talk” The attending said that before berating me “You’re never home” Reminder to send a referral to that nursing home “You’ve been so distant” My patient can’t travel from their rural home for treatment “I need more” My oncology patient begging for more time “Don’t you remember how it used to be?” …

Head Trip

One Poke Away

I knock and introduce myself: — I’m here to draw your labs. — Count Dracula, come in, but say, How painful are your stabs? I tell him with a cheerful smile: — Most patients don’t complain, I do this everyday and so, Know how to find a vein. Big eyes stare up at me, Suspicion …

Space and a Half

“With fear, faith, and love, draw near.” This was sung before receiving

Opening the Door

It’s my first day working on the COVID ICU I have so many fears We know nothing about this disease I don my PAPR and do the safety checks I don’t believe in God, but I pray I will be safe I enter the anteroom, take a deep breath And open the door to the …

Battle of the Genes

Battle of the Genes written by John Tokle FADE IN: INT. UTERUS – DAY A fetus floats in amniotic fluid, weightless; gravity doesn’t seem to reach this aquatic world. It’s peaceful here. An umbilical cord spirals out to Earth, an entire dimension away. We zoom in. Cells dividing, migrating, amalgamating. An ambiguous lump takes shape; …

the plastibell

a pitcher plant luring its prey,

Volume 10 | 2022

Table of contents

Elemental

Fire

Illness Narratives

Restitution stories attempt to outdistance mortality by rendering illness

Peering Over the Edge

One Halloween in grade school, my parents solicited the help of my three

In the Shallows

My father was a professor of biology. His children were his first students. He

Colophon

I am not a god who can stare into your soul I am not a priest in a wood confessional my job is to help and I’ll be here by your side try to understand as I pry out points you hide still your life is yours with your friends and loves to quote I …