Self Awareness

The moment I first saw your heartbeat-
white lines progressing across the dark screen,
competing with echoes of the past:
Better not if you want a career!
You’ll loose your edge!
Don’t talk about family if you want the job!
now crashing across your amorphous shape
and drowning in the vast depths of human experience-
Is the moment I first saw myself.

Dr. Kirstyn E. Brownson, MD is a Surgical Breast Oncologist at Huntsman Cancer Institute and the University of Utah School of Medicine. She has a B.A. in English literature. She enjoys hiking with her husband and greyhound and, most recently, spends much of her time snuggling and perfecting the art of swaddling her newborn son.


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2021 Poem, "Self-Awareness"